hurting people hurts yourself~

i know i hurt some people in the past and present without knowing it. i know im just being foolish and stupid for the things i do. i know im just stupid for being so childish. I KNOW.

what can i do to fix everything?

what can i say to go back to the way things were? =/

i dont know how it happened...wen it happened....why it happened...~

how did a normal convo become something else that would hurt 2 ppl in the end.

i just dont knoww what to do anymore and i dont know if i can take it. i want to just go back.

go back to...whenever just not now = =

phrases from jkim that i love!! xD

well yeah we were bored that day and we watched jkim. "we" were me and qian = =

cuz she told me to watch. = ="

anywayz...got this idea that i write about his lovely phrase that he said through out his show. xD

"everyone is a little gay" -so agree and so true la xD

"what is on my ass....well theres 2...buns?" -hahahahah i love this

"i want twin boys...one gay, one straight" ....LMAO!!

"dandelions??" -yeah sorry...i dont know why i thought it was funny = ="

"i dont like peter chao, i dont like peter chao!" -THANK YOU!! HAHA...too all u ppl that love him too = =

well yeah there should be more but i had to sleep....so heres a pic of what he was doin randomly

humans are indeed interesting...infact we are STUPID!! ><

who doesnt wait for something that wont happen. who doesnt give hope to something that obviously wont happen. who doesnt want something and see someone else get it. this is all why we are stupid...stupid for wanting...stupid for having hopes...stupid for waiting....we are just plain DUMB. = = why do we wait for something or someone....why do we hope for something...and why do we want something but never get it in the end. BS. =/

i decided not to put a title becuz i cant think of one...cuz they are meaningless haha xD

okay so today i was bored and looked out my window again...lovely dark clouds..sun goin down but not all the way yet...and trees looks pretty.

okay the middle of the day wen i was looking all fked up even more and with like really dirty looking hair....my aunt comes over and gives us the shit she bought in switzerland for us. she went to switzerland to buy us this stuff..and all the way to switzerland to buy ROOTS clothing for my nephew..its just the thoughts that count. the chocolate was good tho...especially the one in the middle...it was crispy and soft xD

oh and the cups were fully stainless steel..and shit and was for my dad = =...hes doesnt use these shit. haha

my sis came home wen we were eating dinner and she scared the shit out of my nephew. anywayz...the story is long and i dont wanna explain. so this is what she brought home. a gigantic zucchini...im pretty sure i didnt spell that right...o well.

too bad i didnt have a original one to show the difference haha.

this content is disgusting...not disturbing...DISGUSTING!

okay so i dont know why my words are underline but whatever...so anywayz...i woke up this mornign and looked at the flys again...its been how many days since they were in there..well i dont remember..a couple of days...anywayz...yeah as i saw this morning the 2 were still alive and with other stuff..it was soo disgusting...it started moulding everywhere and then there were some nasty spots and shit...yeah just look urself ><

yeah well..a couple of hours later..i was cleaning my room since like 130 and till now..its like 715 im still not done -.-' yes i know..im VERY slow..anywayz..i looked at it again and one of them died...!! theres only one left and as u can see in the pic..its strong..haha

lets see how long this one will last. ><

I am so disgusting...i know = =

my sui yeah = =" (late nite...snack?)

omg..so tonite we had dinner at like 530 ...>.> so anywayz....like 3 hours later my mom comes home and around 9 i go downstairs and i see her making lobster. i was like WTF...r u not full..and this is what she tells me..."oh well i saw it at T&T and it looked fresh so i bought it and i havent bought it in a long time." and i was like wtf....and she also said " eat it as sui yeah lor" my god la...sui yeah eating that stuff.. sigh ><

okay yeah...my mom made it in 2 diferent times. she made the body first and then made the hands. lol..i mean claws..whatever. so yeah....took me a while to eat the whole thing...had to wait ><

and like i also had a "oil fry ghost" becuz she was at T&T haha. i blame this for my aunt, dragging her to T&T to buy grocery.

yeah i wasnt goin to put this up either ><

this is the worse "sui yeah" someone can have. what is the translation for "sui yeah" anywayz?? HAHA

crazy ppl these days

okay so 5 min ago i was watching some show and someone knocks on our front door....my mom goes and opens it and was talking to this women. me and my sis heard and went downstairs...and she was like oh is this where david tse lives...david tse is my daddy...anywayz....so she was like is he here blah blah blah...and my sis ask her who she was and she was not talking smoothly and said im his sister..thats BS okay. anywayz...so my sis got mad and was like...sorry u got the wrong house and slammed the door or somewhat closed it and she kept kncking on the door. my mom was like..go tell her to go away..and my sis was like pissed a bit and wen she opened the door again...she was angry and was like u pushed me...all i wanted to know was if he lived here..is there no one by that name here..well yeah...my sis was pissed and was like sorry this is our house..and we told her to leave.

i felt kindof sorry for her...but like yeah i cant do anything about it....what u want me to do...let her in and wait till my dad comes home..and end up being dead becuz maybe she was a murderer haha anywayz....i still feel bad but o well.it will pass .