ranting in anger~ =D

why is it that when talking on the phone, its different with me and with someone else. talking so "yum sang sai hay" to that person...i want to faking know who the hell it is. this is why i think that way. this is why i got to faith in u and me. this is why i always thinks stuff wen im not suppose to! like wtf...tell me. not only was i being selfish for acting that way..but ur not being considerate either! i know at most times, im not considerate...but its the same with u so i dont get why u had to stop everything. it is becuz it was one good reason to let go and start something new with someone else? did u have things for someone else thats why u just thought about this good chance to break everything off? making me look like the bad person even though i was but it will make u feel better. this is just bs that im ranting about and that it made me think some more crap. i hate my life...seriously...FML....ive already given the most i can, its just as much as i put in u dont try to put as much effort in either. i know its hard for u at times and especially now and im not in particular being considerate but kcuf this shit!! i cant take it anymore, i want it to end, but i cant and i dont want to make it end. give it a chance and if it really doesnt work out then i will "sum gum mang dai fong hay" but if i havent tried..i wont give up. i know thats just bx that im talking about...its a bit forced as to what im saying...but thats the way i want it....but then...u dont get what u want...EVER!

my life sucks with and without u!!! = =" so FML!

UNmerry christmas and a UNhappy new year~ 2009 FML~

笑又笑過, 喊又喊過, 開心又開心過. 係咪要放手,要夢醒呢??

我唔想. 但係我會尊重你的決定.

December 31, 2009 = (

有些真係唔想面對 ><"

never started but ended...is that possible? *the answer is yes*

i want more...lets go to japan!!

omg...my sis's friend brought some kitkat from japan and they were sooooo good especially the apple vinegar one!!! its just a melt in ur mouth feeling with the freshness of an apple..!!!! ahhhh i want more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh and i had 2 other flavours as well....one was lemon vinegar and the other was orange.

heres what it looks like = ="

很想和你在一起

its a good movie. i dont care....just watch it lol...this is the third movie i like this year. =)

titleless....this post doesnt deserve a title = =

if u had a friend that in the past treated u like crap and suddenly got mad at u for doin something that was supposed to be done...and on the other hand...u get mad at her..becuz she was being a bitch...would u forgive that person? well my answer is simple...

i said it before..she will NEVER become my true friend again...seeing the N number of missed calls and then the txt BEGGING me to call her...i know...for a fact that she is desperate lor....but i said to myself...and i will stick to it...no matter how good friends ppl may thnk we are..i wont consider her my true friend anymore...becuz of that incident....i know i wont forgive.

ppl always say...forgive someone and be "dai fong" i am to a certain point where if it hits the line then theres no turning back. this has to be one thing in my life that i will not forgive or forget. this is one "friend" that i wont consider. call me a bitch but if it happened to anyone of u's ...i know that wasnt good grammar :P ...u may not even talk to that person anymore.

Moon Cakes....oh i hate them so much lol

not only are they not good..but also can kill u!! LOL :P

anywayz...my dad came home and brought home the good brand moon cakes...香港帝皇.

well....there was 3 fking boxes = ="

anywayz...the first box was really nice..and the price was even nicer xD

and the second box the inside was decent and the third just said 香港帝皇 on the front and thats about it...a tin can...so theres no pic xD

heres the inside...nice eh?

well the one on the left thats big is the 燕窩 (birds nest) one. the other one believe is 瑶柱 (dried scallops??) one...omg..cant believe how NASTY the birds nest one was ><"

so yeah LOOK at the nice price...probably decent price i guess?!?!

not that u can see the different moon cakes there are...so yeah..try ur best..for those who knows chinese LOL

and for those who dont...here...theres like:

1-birds nest moon cake

1-dried scallop moon cake

2-white lotus paste moon cake

2-black sesame paste moon cake

4-red bean paste moon cake

AND heres the other box

yeah..not that surprising eh?

oh by the way....money was not involved. good thing...i would say to my dad...why dont u give me the money instead of wasting it on lard. = ="

保持愛你 (Love Connected)

This was my second favourite movie of the year ^^ so good! but why do i love sad love stories?

becuz they remind me of stuff? i dont know
quote from movie:

"我們對愛情充滿憧憬

我們希望情人會唱情歌

我們希望愛情會有不速之客

我們希望愛情可以 3 心 2 意

我們希望愛情可以有試用期

我們希望愛情會有承諾

但是

愛情從來是希望越大

失望越大"

"To us love is full of hope

We hope our lovers can sing for us

We hope to meet the one

We hope to love more than one person

We hope love can have a probation period

WE HOPE LOVE CAN KEEP PROMISES

But

The bigger expectation

The bigger the disappointment"

fack the weather....the cruelty of it ><"

so my garage sale day, we let a mouse in the house. and we caught it like on tuesday nite. heres what it looked like...it was still moving on the trap. and my sis was scared of it = = i had to put in plastic bag and throw out but the thing is we threw it in our neighbours garbage bin :P

okay so here is what my cute hamster looked like wen it was sleeping...and no its not dead but...

here it is today T.T i found it dead wen i came back from school =(

fking weather was fking cold last nite and i didnt know that it would freeze to death okay. i went in my room last nite and saw it not moving so i just poked at it and moved everything hoping it wasnt dead...and it wasnt...it started moving again so i put more beddings in so it would get warmer. well guess what...it died cuz it was too cold T.T

u ppl asking why there was no heat on last nite....well....chinese ppl dont fking turn on the heat until they see snow....T.T fking hell...=/ thats why theres no heat. we are cheap and a typical chinese family T.T

hurting people hurts yourself~

i know i hurt some people in the past and present without knowing it. i know im just being foolish and stupid for the things i do. i know im just stupid for being so childish. I KNOW.

what can i do to fix everything?

what can i say to go back to the way things were? =/

i dont know how it happened...wen it happened....why it happened...~

how did a normal convo become something else that would hurt 2 ppl in the end.

i just dont knoww what to do anymore and i dont know if i can take it. i want to just go back.

go back to...whenever just not now = =

phrases from jkim that i love!! xD

well yeah we were bored that day and we watched jkim. "we" were me and qian = =

cuz she told me to watch. = ="

anywayz...got this idea that i write about his lovely phrase that he said through out his show. xD

"everyone is a little gay" -so agree and so true la xD

"what is on my ass....well theres 2...buns?" -hahahahah i love this

"i want twin boys...one gay, one straight" ....LMAO!!

"dandelions??" -yeah sorry...i dont know why i thought it was funny = ="

"i dont like peter chao, i dont like peter chao!" -THANK YOU!! HAHA...too all u ppl that love him too = =

well yeah there should be more but i had to sleep....so heres a pic of what he was doin randomly

humans are indeed interesting...infact we are STUPID!! ><

who doesnt wait for something that wont happen. who doesnt give hope to something that obviously wont happen. who doesnt want something and see someone else get it. this is all why we are stupid...stupid for wanting...stupid for having hopes...stupid for waiting....we are just plain DUMB. = = why do we wait for something or someone....why do we hope for something...and why do we want something but never get it in the end. BS. =/

i decided not to put a title becuz i cant think of one...cuz they are meaningless haha xD

okay so today i was bored and looked out my window again...lovely dark clouds..sun goin down but not all the way yet...and trees looks pretty.

okay the middle of the day wen i was looking all fked up even more and with like really dirty looking hair....my aunt comes over and gives us the shit she bought in switzerland for us. she went to switzerland to buy us this stuff..and all the way to switzerland to buy ROOTS clothing for my nephew..its just the thoughts that count. the chocolate was good tho...especially the one in the middle...it was crispy and soft xD

oh and the cups were fully stainless steel..and shit and was for my dad = =...hes doesnt use these shit. haha

my sis came home wen we were eating dinner and she scared the shit out of my nephew. anywayz...the story is long and i dont wanna explain. so this is what she brought home. a gigantic zucchini...im pretty sure i didnt spell that right...o well.

too bad i didnt have a original one to show the difference haha.

this content is disgusting...not disturbing...DISGUSTING!

okay so i dont know why my words are underline but whatever...so anywayz...i woke up this mornign and looked at the flys again...its been how many days since they were in there..well i dont remember..a couple of days...anywayz...yeah as i saw this morning the 2 were still alive and with other stuff..it was soo disgusting...it started moulding everywhere and then there were some nasty spots and shit...yeah just look urself ><

yeah well..a couple of hours later..i was cleaning my room since like 130 and till now..its like 715 im still not done -.-' yes i know..im VERY slow..anywayz..i looked at it again and one of them died...!! theres only one left and as u can see in the pic..its strong..haha

lets see how long this one will last. ><

I am so disgusting...i know = =

my sui yeah = =" (late nite...snack?)

omg..so tonite we had dinner at like 530 ...>.> so anywayz....like 3 hours later my mom comes home and around 9 i go downstairs and i see her making lobster. i was like WTF...r u not full..and this is what she tells me..."oh well i saw it at T&T and it looked fresh so i bought it and i havent bought it in a long time." and i was like wtf....and she also said " eat it as sui yeah lor" my god la...sui yeah eating that stuff.. sigh ><

okay yeah...my mom made it in 2 diferent times. she made the body first and then made the hands. lol..i mean claws..whatever. so yeah....took me a while to eat the whole thing...had to wait ><

and like i also had a "oil fry ghost" becuz she was at T&T haha. i blame this for my aunt, dragging her to T&T to buy grocery.

yeah i wasnt goin to put this up either ><

this is the worse "sui yeah" someone can have. what is the translation for "sui yeah" anywayz?? HAHA

crazy ppl these days

okay so 5 min ago i was watching some show and someone knocks on our front door....my mom goes and opens it and was talking to this women. me and my sis heard and went downstairs...and she was like oh is this where david tse lives...david tse is my daddy...anywayz....so she was like is he here blah blah blah...and my sis ask her who she was and she was not talking smoothly and said im his sister..thats BS okay. anywayz...so my sis got mad and was like...sorry u got the wrong house and slammed the door or somewhat closed it and she kept kncking on the door. my mom was like..go tell her to go away..and my sis was like pissed a bit and wen she opened the door again...she was angry and was like u pushed me...all i wanted to know was if he lived here..is there no one by that name here..well yeah...my sis was pissed and was like sorry this is our house..and we told her to leave.

i felt kindof sorry for her...but like yeah i cant do anything about it....what u want me to do...let her in and wait till my dad comes home..and end up being dead becuz maybe she was a murderer haha anywayz....i still feel bad but o well.it will pass .

my sticks came

k so i went down to get somethign hot to drink and noticed a package for me..yay! anywayz..it was the M600 replacement sticks i got for the one that me and qian broke...poking a balloon..who wouldve thought the balloon was stronger than a stylus stick = =" anywayz..i got 5 extra ones costing me like $2.30 hehe =D

anywyz..so now im pending..should i order my replacement screen...or shoudl i screw that phone.?? i really want the stuff that was on that phone ...but like the reaplcement screen is like $50-60 and i wanna save up more money...since my friend is coming back soon...and im just waiting for him and then i will get the new phone. eww but im not that excited to get that phone no more cuz some other friend got it and i dont want the same phone as her becuz of many many reasons = = but like yeah..i dont know...so what shoudl i do?? here just look at my nice sticks.....

My bruise: day 2

okay so this morning i got up around 930 and got ready...and just before i left i took a pic of my bruise this morning at around 10 am. yeah well...this morning i didnt really care with it...didnt really bother me besides the fact that it loks liek this dark spot on my very pale white arms = =" and my friends were stupid and was like watch its like cancer or something or watch if thats a birthmark that came REALLY REALLY late -.-" that is like the most stupidest thing i ever heard. sigh.

okay and now i took a picture of it at 10 pm around that time. see theres not much of a difference..i dont think so..btu then u cant really see that clearly with a picture...looks WAY darker wen u see it in person.

okay what else happened...my new friend found out that i had a half gf lor. emm hmm..she was very much interested in this topic.anywayz...not goin to explain everything cuz it was very complicated....hey jkim is playing harry potter :P yes once again i am watching jkim tonite and its pathetic becuz i am watching him sing and play the piano for hours. = =' this is TRUELY called NO LIFE!! haha....im not the only one either aHAHHA...*cough* QC *cough* LMAO!!!

okay he was playing toxic again becuz some user wanted to hear and he played it becuz this is what he said "okay fine i will play toxic again,chris brown, just becuz ur cute" anywayz...he was totally off tune lor. so disgusting la. he isntreally accurate with this. >< sigh ="/

Julie & Julia

okay i dont care what ppl say about that movie...how it should be boring and shit...i loved it. and so should u ppl..man that was a good movie. its based on a true story and sad how julia child and the husband paul child died not long ago. i do actually like that women and how she cooked. anywayz....yeah it was funny and sad at some point and it was GREAT!! so u ppl should totally go watch it :D

after the movie i went to eat dinner at this place at metro. then my friend was telling me that ur not suppose to rub ur bruises like 48 hours having it...i was like WTF. well apparently its still forming and all so ur not suppose to rub it or u will hurt it even more...but like chinese ppl wise tell u to rub it to get rid of the blood and all....so who do we believe ><

jkim is = ="

okay stupid qian told me that jkim is on and i was stupid and went to pause my show and watch him. = =" well anyways..man hes addicting...well the first thing that i heard him say wen i went on was...."im in my kitchen becuz i had mad sex with sakura last nite and my room is like a total mess." okay...anywayz...heres what he was doin...showing stuff that he bought in korea anywayz....i attempted to take a pic and successful or i mean the print screen thing...

i hate things that go buzz buzz ><

well i go down and eat my anger out haha...funny anywayz...made some shit and got hooked in watching tv for about an hour and a half to 2 hours..and came back in my room finding some buzz buzz..wondering what it was...found it..it was those nasty house blck flys which i hate....so anywayz..successfully killed the first one..and then went ot the bathroom and found another one..like WTF ..where r they coming from and why is it always MY ROOM = =" and then successfully killed that one..well then go back in my room and FKING FIND TWO MORE!! WTH!!! =( and then took like 40 min to catch the last 2..the whole process took around 45-50 min = ='' sad ...well and it took out some of my anger..and victory was mine =) caught them all in a bottle haha but had to squish the last one cuz it was a big and mean one haha. :P haha..they are all still moviing.. xD