ranting in anger~ =D

why is it that when talking on the phone, its different with me and with someone else. talking so "yum sang sai hay" to that person...i want to faking know who the hell it is. this is why i think that way. this is why i got to faith in u and me. this is why i always thinks stuff wen im not suppose to! like wtf...tell me. not only was i being selfish for acting that way..but ur not being considerate either! i know at most times, im not considerate...but its the same with u so i dont get why u had to stop everything. it is becuz it was one good reason to let go and start something new with someone else? did u have things for someone else thats why u just thought about this good chance to break everything off? making me look like the bad person even though i was but it will make u feel better. this is just bs that im ranting about and that it made me think some more crap. i hate my life...seriously...FML....ive already given the most i can, its just as much as i put in u dont try to put as much effort in either. i know its hard for u at times and especially now and im not in particular being considerate but kcuf this shit!! i cant take it anymore, i want it to end, but i cant and i dont want to make it end. give it a chance and if it really doesnt work out then i will "sum gum mang dai fong hay" but if i havent tried..i wont give up. i know thats just bx that im talking about...its a bit forced as to what im saying...but thats the way i want it....but then...u dont get what u want...EVER!

my life sucks with and without u!!! = =" so FML!